Erm after so long i finally came up with a actual plan of wat i'm going to do... first, work part time first... save up some money... things have to settle, sterillise for ebi, 2nd vacine for bengo, pay my stupid voda phone bill... buy tt thing from shi man, then if got more try to help out zhe with his bill... then still got dog food... very chor, they eat more n more... shit also more n more... everyday morning go clear, at night come back go clear... last for 1 month like tt i sick liao... temperature reach 39... haiz... almost all my friend ask y i still wanna own them, just becos they r lives n i still got love n memories with them... eh these memories is very usefull orh... last thurs go back ritz carlton green house work... fucking tough, i 1 n a 1/2 year nvr go back work liao they take me like 1 n a half week nvr work like tt... forcing me to do things ma chiam i all can remember, ma chiam nothing change there like tt... after tt i fall sick liao... super xin ku, but when i think back of tt incident, compare, this shit is nothing loh... when i sick i also think the same thing... then not xin ku le... i know... nothing in my life will be as xin ku as tt incident liao... thanx, becos of tt heart pain, i can do anything... thanx for ur betray...
Haiz... naturally i will definately feel lonely, not used to it... everytime go disturb shi man n zhe also cannot de la... my neighbourhood alot ppl also tot tt shi man is my gf... haiz... have to disappear liao... but how leh?onli got 2 ways, one is i say i busy with work then slowly disappear, so zhe won't anyhow think, but shi man will be lonely wor... think no need worry for tt... she sure go watch tv if noone accompany her... second way is i got a new gf, then zhe also won't think much, cos i wanna accompany her so will not meet shi man too much... even meet liao with a gf around zhe n other ppl will not misunderstand ba... haiz... just to say tt i dun fully understand zhe, cos he very clever... n also, alot of ppl can't understand me, even i tell them wat i'm thinking they also won't believe, n sure think negative of me... cos maybe i also have the clever n wicked look ba... haiz... must be more tranquil liao, so ppl won't scare me, n understand me more... so will have lesser ppl think i'm a FUCKER...
Hehe, talking about finding a new gf... hehe not so soon ba, cos need more time to understand others... so far got 4 i'm a bit interested de... interested in their appearance n characteristic... first is tt gal i saw in g_______ de... the guai guai gal, she also seems to wanna tok with me like tt... hehe but feeling abit funny, c how first ba... another is louisa, dunno y suddenly have feelings for her... but she very dao loh... msg dun reply... twice somemore... haiz... nvm la... forget it... dun even have the chance to understand more... third is zhe's sis... hehe... dunno leh... got some funny feelings for her... but this one even worst... dun even have the chance to talk to her... extreme dao... forget it... the last one... hehe... shhhh... cannot say out... but think like her the most... cos can talk cock alot... but her hidden character i have to c clearly first... n plus our habit quite opposite la... she tt kind like sun de... i'm tt kind like moon de... i'm tt kind eat medium rare de, she's tt kind eat well done de... i'm tt kind love coffee de, she's tt kind hate coffee de... haiz... dunno la... maybe really cannot click la... but at least can be friend ma... she also inspired me in some ways ba...at least i can c my plans clearly... ya hor, say so much haven't say my plans... save up to 1000 to 1500, then go reservise on 11 june, then come out at 15 june, then send resume to alot of hotels, clubs and restaurant... position aiming, cook 1 or lead cook... if cannot then cook 2 loh... haiz... hope my plans can go smooth... no matter how xin ku now i can go through easily, cos nothing is as pain as tt...