These few days, i wonder how's heaven's like... a place with tt we have no bodies, no lust, greed, hunger, and wrath tt is deep in us... i wonder how would it be with onli love ones... we enjoy wat we have tt is given by the leader, our father, we r grateful n didn't expect more... we r just satisfied... tml is not important, date, time, place does not concern with us... wat others says is not important to us, how bad n cruel others could say, cos none of them r true... i can't hurt others, others can't harm us... we dun have a body, but we hug together loving each other... tt's realli heaven, nothing really bother us, n i know u won't n u dun have to betrays me... we r faithful, to friends, family, our memories... tt's heaven...
Ya, i'm so tired these few days... lonely, fake, tortured... so when i have the time to rest n hug my boster, i wish, i could go heaven... this is the heaven i crave for... but suddenly i understand something, y, if there is, god wan to create earth... becos heaven's so boring... ya, i'm tired, if i go heaven it will be realli good... but how long can i be there? maybe a hundred years... but i will realli get bored one day, cos nothing challenges, nothing is fun... so god created earth, us, with time limit... with death, human will have the great challenge... cos nobody knows wat's beyond death... n created lust, hatred, hunger, greed, selfishness, wrath in every single person in these world to make them equal... of cos on the other side, love, peace, care, sympathy, trust r created to balance everything... lots more... time, sun, moon, stars, music, wind, fire, water, n alot alot more... maybe he really spend 7 days to create all these... so making life much more interesting to all of us... it's us tt make our life so down... the morale of creating these earth, i guess is, he wan us to create a heaven in earth... with all these things, with time limit... perhaps it really work out at first... but now? disappointing ah? becos of these negative in me, i also fallen into hell... a place where god created in our brain... a place where noone wanna go, but just becos of these negatives, we still will be in there, or we make other ppl in there... haha these is the analysation by me after so long of self religious study mix with reality study... my blog ma, i wanna write wat also can... if wat i write is true, before my death, i realli wish to create a heaven in my life, n ppl tt surrounds me... but first, i will create hell first...
Wohoo... chapter 7, reminds me of my favourite band's, L'Arc~en~Ciel, new album, 7th heaven... 30th may launch orh... dunno is in japan or singapore... haha dunno la... free go heeren c have anot loh...