Erm today off yesterday split... tml should be double... thursday also maybe can do double, friday double sat double... sunday off then monday going into khatib... erm... wat will happen neh? i predict the week i go in, alot of things will happen... erm... my family crisis finally starts... as i expected... but i have still not enough to prevent anything... but i work x2 hard to stop the problem n acheive my aim...
Erm... me n her... my bao bei... case close le la... dun wan go think le... u know, i'm no good at wooing gals... n after thinking back of the past, i know i'm no good at maintaining a relationship too... haiz... can't be good bf... keke yesterday when working, i was so boring... super low tide... nothing to do, n i still work at my 85% speed... wtf, in the end xiao lao po call us go split shift... fuck up... like tt 15 bucks gone... ccb... am i too commited to work? haiz... while working i was singing songs... sang cantonese song... not alot of ppl understand, so sing chinese... sang "yi qian nian yi hou" by jj... after tt sing "ai hen jian dan" by tao zhe... haha this song means alot... sing untill wanna cry liao... think carefully, if i really love her alot then she won't leave me n do this to me... onli 2 conclusion... i love myself more than i love her, i hurt her so much tt she wan me to die... erm... so dun start another relationship is the best ba, anyway do i have tt extra time to start another relationship? forget it ba... it's just the loneliness plus the hornyness tt making me think so... so cut off...
Living in pain for almost 3 months le... think this pain still will carry on ba... i will get use to it de... cry again this morning... worth nothing... my tears already worth nothing... to everyone ba, not onli her... have to be strong... have u hurt me enough? not enough, then just bring it on... all r expected... yesterday dreamt tt nobody trust me... shi man, ting, everybody... so my onli choice is to leave n go to another place... ah... dun care la... i'm still alone... i dun care liao... my family i have to save first... dun buy phone le... wait ba, wait for it to go lower... earn alot alot of money... !@#*&#
Remember long ago we watch a movie call advent children... she know i love tt alot, so everytime watch with me... the ending quote, dunno she remember anot... "Watashi wa hitori ja nai" keke... dun think she know wat it means now ba... if know must tag me orh... now i would say "watashi wa hitori ja"... hehe free come out drink coffee ba... free then say, hohoho...