Haiz... i lost another friend le... no is 2... zhe n shi man trust eve n yao rong le... zhe should trust them long time ago la... just showing me i'm the victim but actually think he trust them ba... now, i dunno wat they tell shi man, she also trust them le... think she hates me le ba... nvm... it's better this way... at least she won't be in the middle...
Someone i really treasure... i guess she won't trust wat they say just like tt... but maybe zhe help them say things ba... dunno la... i can't guess... but i believe she still trust me abit... but i would rather her not trusting me... it's better for everyone... the money she wants i will pay... become 1200 liao... dunno y... she forget i gave her 200 tt time le ma? or she suddenly remember still got 200 can take from me... nvm, just take i really owe her i return her... before i finish giving, i will not change the name of my insurance tt is under eve's name, just in case i die of some stupid reason... tt's it ba...
After thinking for so long, i should forgive everything ba... no point living in hatred... even if i die also xin ku... i hate them last time is becos i love them too deep... but tt kind of love is different ba... love someone should let them happy isn't it? but the most i can do is like tt liao... own happiness in the end still need themselves to achieve... family needs money, friend needs money, have to return her tt money... possible... 1500 + 1200 + 1800 + 900=5400... by september to october possible? seems abit impossible... wahaha "LVYN yi chu shou, bian zhi you mei you" i can... since i say liao, i must definately do it... they most probably will say expected i can't do it, but most important is i fail myself... i can't fail myself anymore...
I guess i haven't finish finding the mistake i had done ba... one already say her heart already dies... another say she won't find back tt friendship anymore... no chance for me to find out straight from them... i will start a new relationship, a new bunch of friendship... i will c whether same thing will happen again... i must know wat i'm imperfect...
Eve, Yao rong, Zhe, Shi man... dun think i will c u all again, i'm really sorry for wat i did... the memories u all gave me will always be with me... time will nvr go back... i'm not sure whether i'm wrong or wat... i will find the answer... with my short left over life time... love u guys always...