Today book out loh... tml go in, then tech mob after tt happy hour, then end of my this fucking reservist... wat's wrong leh... seriously speaking hor, this time i as a NS men is mentally more shiong then NSF loh... who the hell says tt reservist very relax one... ya... relax in a very uncomfortable situation loh....early morning 5 o'clock wake up... work all the way till at night 10 plus 11... next morning same... when work comes must do quickly so hope can go back faster, finish one part liao, then call us wait... can one time wait for 3 hours one loh... knn... then know quite a few close friend... best thing is they not from my bunk but is signaller... stamford, kenny, jun qiang... we work together la... stamford is a teacher, pai kai teacher... haha... smoke somemore... i normally talk to him on, martial art, history, relationship, army all this... kenny ah... one thing onli... women, n most probably link to sex... fuck up... he's a salesman... jun qiang dun really understand him... he like blur blur like tt... haha quite happy la, but sometime very sian... haiz... everyone knows my situation, kenny keep on pshycoing me go find gals... teach me how to find, how to play gal... call me to join him as gal player... stupid... but heart got abit move.... so i go think... he's like a devil... teach me how to one time play alot of gals... stamford, someone which is more faithful to gals... but he now concentrate on the career... waiting for the gal he can c future with to come out loh... angel... one sit left one sit right... haiz... going crazy... should i become a playboy or wat... erm... i know tt someone like to pshyco me to be playboy long time ago, but now with a gal he love alot... probably... i hope so... haiz...
Still the same thing, i told tt guy, i will not be pshycoed... same till now... i take my body very seriously... like gal leh... somemore i understand tt i dun hate them le... instead i'm happy... i understand how to love le... i understand y she hates me so much le... understand...
This thing better dun say, wait she say i ka her jiao way again... one of my mistake... i should break with her long time ago... cos i dun love her all the way till tt night... am i too late? surely yes... my fault... tt's y she hates me... another reason is i'm too complicated... to let her understand my feelings... my mistake ba... haiz... sometime life realli sucks... so, i have to forgive wat she did to me... who call me so late then love her... all the way i'm lying to myself, scare if i really break with her, tt thing may happened again... keep lying to myself tt i love her... untill tt night i really love her liao...
Realli sucks like hell... alot of funny things happen this few years... y?!? i realli can't understand... onli thing i dun understand is y things r like tt... partially becos of me ba.... this should be the ans... haiz... aiya so my fianl choice is wait lor... best thing i can do le... if realli got fate i will find, if no, then i may be single forever... i dun mind la.... now i finally can say.... eve is the first gf tt i love in my life... at least i love b4 i die... no regrets ba... just tt i can't show her tt will spoilt the picture...
haiz...
A__, i long time nvr c u le... i miss u... just when the time comes n tell me i can stop crying tonight le, n u made me cried again... y u made this mistake? i always tot tt i will be someone better than him to take care of u... but now i dun think so ba... becos he is someone u probably will love forever... love by a angel like u... nvm... hope in the near future i can be a angel of urs... take care... love u too...