Tada!!! i'm back... how many things change le leh? ohoho... this ict hor.... onli 5 days... one sentence to describe," wait to rush, rush to wait..." but just becos of this ict... i really think through alot of things.... from monday... someone msg me... "our god is a forgiving god...." from then on i understand something super important... my heart goes crazy... finally felt tt i think through le... i will not be angry n sad so easy le... even yes it won't last very long... it won't torture me le.... thanx clarisse... just when i tot of i finally tot tt i truely understand le, last night saw someone in msn... this is just like a test for me... u will notice the last part i'm like talking about others fro yesterday's blog... ya loh... someone i love... till now onli eve can take over her... she told me a news.... a si bei fuck up news... i cry again.... nabei... i feel sad... but also happy for her... realli... n i also forgive her bf le la... wat will happen to them in the future? dunno... c how loh.... as long i can help i will help de....
Said b4... after ict is time to unleash my spirit... some sort of la... i feel my emotion is very stable le... i'm still human, i will feel happy, sad, angry, curious, frustrated... but i can easily c through loh... feel more relax le... now i know how i'm going to live n felt tt it's right leh... so should i pass it to others? think i should ba... try loh... i live with the thinking i will die anytime... any moment... wat's the point of living? of cos to be happy... how can i be happy? i wan to create a small heaven in earth... as large as possible... but now i c the heaven in me liao... all becos i know how to love le... slowly i will spread... hope i can do so... slowly... but my best... i give myself 100 full marks... so if next moment i just die like tt, at least i'm trying my best to do wat i wan... shouldn't this be the way? i dunno la... this is my way... n i will learn even more... i will carry on... n understand love...
I was ever being buried by hatred... almost kill me... make me worst than death... but now... i felt tt i had rebirth...