Haha had a good sleep last night... long time nvr sleep untill so shiok liao... neck so pain... haha... nvm, very soon i will have my own bed liao... erm... feel pretty happy today... but abit lonely, abit boring... felt tt farrer park abit of unfamiliar... so much memories here but all r gone... went to cleo pets... c sheena, wanna tok to her, but she busy with her things leh... so i talk to dogs loh... then as usual, kanna attack by the 'jian gou'... he always like tt one... bite my ear... haha naughty boy...
Did a experiment just now... go view all their profile... eve n yao rong la... try to c how i feel...erm... all the memories came back... c how loving they r... just like last time i n eve... eve become more beautiful le leh... hehe nvr notice this last time :P eh, i was thinking, if eve wanna patch back with me wat will i do? jer ask me this b4... since i already understand everything liao... erm... maybe yes maybe no la... have to understand her more loh... i ever love her b4 la, but now she change like wat i also dunno... wat is past is past, have to understand her from the start, whether should i accept... i say 'if' onli la... but i felt tt pretty impossible loh, i believe yao rong will bring more happiness to her n treasure her more than wat i can last time... n i guess eve is mature enough to think, someone tt care for her tt much cannot be found anywhere... unless changes happen la... but i will always wish them all the best... thinking back in the past... we were once happy, but now they maybe even happier ba... erm, i understand la... when thinking back, my loneliness feeling seems even heavier... haha how i wish i got someone to hug like last time, but i cannot be hugging anyone just like tt ma... have to choose also la... choose someone tt suits me most... hehe the eve i know dun realli suits me la... she suits someone else, n she have someone le, won't be lonely le, happy for her...
Walk around my neighbourhood... remember the memories with shi man n zhe... haha, wat if i saw them? erm, i will smile... cos i still treat them as friend la, but won't talk to them, unless they smile back to me... miss them...
Haiz... think hard, y ppl dun understand me? not becos i didn't say out my feelings, it's just tt how i feel i will say straight... but my emotion changes, so ppl is confused... n sometime i dun wanna let ppl know how i feel so i lie, so everything seems contradicting... learn new things again... seriously i felt tt i very childish leh... so late still mature untill like this onli... must talk to ppl more...
Y my life so dramatic ah? cos i make it so i guess... all my fault la... think next time will be more dramatic... c how... hahaha...