Today work morning... quite shack la... changes again... now we r wearing tt stupid kimono to do service... cock right...but quite light... somemore no need to waste the stupid time go uniform department draw uniform... knn tt place always waste my time... haiz... ok la... today really ma chiam work onli loh... lack of something... like nobody talk cock with me leh... or i didn't go find ppl talk cock...erm... dunno leh...some kind of boring today...feel damn sleepy...going to finish work tt time saw feby, elly,n who ah? nvr realli notice... onli notice this 2... haha fuck up right... they also like didn't give me a damn... erm... i feel the aura... may not be 100% zhun but got 80% ba... someone spread nonsence...about me de ba...erm...maybe...fuck care...my onli motive is to earn money now...emo emo thingy,haiz, time to stop le...feel like saying sorry for kissing her tt time...realli fuck up...dunno leh...my face now more n more like jay chou liao...lan jiao bin...
I really miss her...she is someone i felt tt is very kind... straight forward, not much ambition,like to show attitude not onli to her bf... even to her friends...but wat happened tt night?wat they tell her?or even show her?yes i know my mistake, can u read my pass few blog entry? pls, i really know liao, n i wanna change...even the chance to change u also dun give me ma?once a murderer is forever a murderer ma?if a human without a chance to change then i now still stay alive for wat?must well die?i change le also useless,for wat i live?thing carefully leh...a murderer sentence is death sentence leh... stupid law... i believe at least this is confirm cum chop correct one...at least a person sincerely wants to change chances should be given, trust may not be given in period of time,but a sincere criminal won't mind cos since he knows wat he did wrong...i dun mind if they nvr ever trust me again...i know wat my mistake... n if wan me to take all the blame i dun mind, cos i wanna change...realli realli... but i may not even know all of wat i did wrong...can just pls enlighten me?ya maybe i may like wat eve say last time,no matter who give me advice i won't listen,i'm stubborn, i'm proud...call me watever... but now i really wanna know...n i will think through it... seriously think through it...pls tell me...
Sorry,i got nothing to give u to apologise...the money loh... u say tt 500 tt i help u all one...keep it... just take tt as my apologise fee,cos i got nothing i can give liao... the rest i can say is just sorry... think i realli hurt u...haiz...i still remember the times...u always like to say'cb u...' the time i realli hate they all 2...i cried n u were there for me to hug...everytime i talk stupid thing to u,u pay attention to listen to me with tt stupid face...once phone got msg u straight away fuck care me liao...most of the time is zhe...i felt happy for u,n sad for myself tt time...cos u got someone u love so much...keke...miss u,u know?tt feeling is like buddy,someone tt will be there for me...i was lost tt time...i hope tt u can hate me n leave me for good,mainly is becos zhe can be ensure tt i got nothing to do with u when he's in camp...secondly, i can really hate them...n dun pollute u tt kind heart...but now i feel stupid...i dun hate them,n i'm sorry,n if zhe wanna think anyhow then come confront me...dun trust his gf then wat for together...ya i now then know...i dun trust eve then y i be with her?onli one reason i gave myself tt time,cos i scared tt i lose her...now is so stupid,in fact i lose her...onli one thing not tt stupid ba... i'm happy cos both of them realli so loving...
Ah!!!! told myself to stop tt bloody emo-emo thing...y?cos i found the stupid plastic bag when i last saw her,she pass me tt thingy, wrap with the plastic bag...got her perfume...miss her...anyway the smell finally disappear...but if one day i smell it again i will remember...n no point go search, cos it's not from her...aiya...fat ass,u r always full of shit...but i still miss u so much...eve,miss u too...hope u realli get wat u wan now...n hope u realli go read tt msg i send u yesterday...n hope u realli can be at least a hi bye friend...i didn't expect much...same to u shi man...i dun dare to expect much...just tell me wat i did wrong...u said b4, a friend u thrown away u won't wan it back...so at least c me at the neighbourhood can at least smile n say hi...i'm so sorry to hurt u...
Emo-emo stop stop stop!!!come back to realiaty...just came home n kanna fuck by my grandma...same old story about my dog...n there she goes, start rapping...same old thing...say she wish to die...then i write to her loh... now u everyday clean clean clean, one day u will be die of tiredness... cb me right... think one day sure got retribution one...dunno la...better dun find another relationship, make another person sad onli...pui!! i where got so bad...say is say like tt la,but if she die then i stay where?siao bo...tt's one reason,i know how she feels la,but also must let me have time to think of a way ma... wan me sell tt 2 dogs, kill me also cannot...lan lan siao siao also must let me think of a way out...best possible way is keep in my grandma toilet loh...but after i work double come back i sure steam one...haiz...i still can steam...but she steam buay ki liao...she also nothing to ki...haiz... so decided liao loh...
Anyway dun ask me y i treat my grandma like tt,wan ask,ask my mum...ask how my grandma treat her...ask my grandpa,how she treat him, ask my sis,when grandpa die tt time wat she did? not say i hate her la, so long ago liao, just tt i dun like her la...everytime call me go over,she got something to tell me, she not enough breath to speak loud loud... then when i go over she ma chiam shouting over to another end of the parade square with the high pitch even superman cao ge also cannot reach one...ccb...this is call sound polution...can make a person easily du lan even with the smallest spark... i now can control abit la...but still need more training...haha ccb...suddenly alot of cock to tok...although my face still like jay chou,listening to his songs,showing a lan jiao bin,but thinking,his rap is better than my grandma neh?o_O"""