Chapter XXVI: Doesn't Matter
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Work double yesterday n today... i was late today... fuck up... totally cannot hear the alarm... g/h call me, totally nvr hear... untill my lao po zai call me then i pick up... it was already 8... fuck... can't pull my body up... i know my temperature these few days la... not very high la,but dunno y so giddy n shack... haha frank to say la, i'm sick... cos no time drink wat ba... haha is forget to drink... headache ah... but dun dare to say, scare they dun let me work... onli my lao po zai knows... now i ok abit le... keep drinking water today but pee still very yellow... die la... dun give a damn la... just disappointed with myself... so fast reach limit liao... haiz... work at night even more sian... kanna fuck by yoke kuan for nothing... the guest order things troublesome then my fault... i'm trying my best to get wat the guest need most my fault... for wat u scold me la... no mood to work plus i already reach my limit... so whether they can go early whether everything will go smoothly,doesn't matter...
Childish hor? haha go back to last time liao... felt tt part time really like tissue, need to use then take dun need then throw away...fuck sia... everytime call me go split shift... everytime c the full timer do nothing then i work like dog...onli c them work when need to save cos when i have to go... the full time always can sit down talk... dunno who full time who part time...ccb...but then y i still work there? first is to earn money fast, second is to increase my capabalities... so kanna make used like tt does it matter? yes,cos i can master wat i learn faster n become even more professional... so i du lan for fuck....just too tired... wanna be childish for awhile... so let it be... hoho...
Go friendster,saw eve view my profile... browse her profile n photos... haha happy with him now... good... some kind of fate i think... although i will still think about the memories everyday, still sometimes will cry,but i'm just blaming myself... doesn't matter le... whether i'm happy or sad doesn't matter much to anyone... i cry or laugh doesn't matter le... wat matter me most is how am i climbing up... the rest doesn't matter le... after ting tt dai ji i realli c open le...
Tired, really tired... lao po zai bought me this tt day...
so sweet... so happy... but doesn't matter le... she got bf,she is old enough to think le... she is just my another collegue...my superior... think she also another one getting married soon de ba... watever... saw crystal(swee ching) today again... felt tt she more n more cute n happy le... think get used to the environment le ba... she also a good gal... first time felt tt she's attractive... dunno she like me or dun like... always like to suan me untill very jia lat although she's not good at it... so sad... haha watever,doesn't matter... still got alot of things... g/h politics is damn gao also... if i join full time most probably will kanna also, although now i already kanna whack in the face liao...but.... same old thing, doesn't matter anymore... onli money n my future matters...
