Today...is my first day jobless for the pass almost 3 months...realli...dunno wat to do...10 plus wake up liao...my poor Presario was singing the whole night...lucky he no throat,cannot sore...wake up use com...then sit untill ass pain,then go back sleep,then sleep untill neck pain then go use com again...repeat dunno how many times liao...then go down find sheena n david,then play need for speed carbon...i sucks at tt...then play untill du lan finally going to win tt time his x box hang...ccb...felt tt i realli born a sway kia...nvm...just a game...then go back home,repeat the same old thing again...
Then really buay da han liao then go novena again...i also dunno wanna go where...then c genki sushi...go eat loh...i one person eat realli quite affordable leh...haha...i still remember eat with eve b4...still remember where we sit n wat conversation we having...but it's at marina square there de...haiz...then msging clarisse n erlina...then decide to meet clarisse...yeah...finally can meet someone liao...hoho...but tt time 7+,wait untill 9 plus then met her...wtf...super gao tu...but she got her project to do ma...wat to do...nvm la...then chat untill 12 then we go home...chat with her alot of things...using my brains to talk to her...know alot of things i dunno de...then b4 she goes,she tell me not to think too much...be a simple human can liao...then i was thinking y i so complicated?y now i feel so stressful?erm...she take bus i walk home,then i use tt time to think....
Wat did i do?i realli hurt her feelings tt much ma?..................i should say yes...no matter how much i feel hurt,i still have to be responsible for the hurt she felt...cos i used to say 'i love u' to her...how can i repay her?is there a way?...........if there is pls tell me can?dun tell me,realli wan me to eat shit in front of her n go give car bang n give her all my insurance money?i can't,cos i still got my family...how can i repay her?...........i realli dunno...y i work so hard?firstly just to repay her the money she say i owe her...if tt can help i realli dun mind giving her...realli...i dun wan her to be angry,sad n filled with hatred...just be happy with wat she have now...treasure wat she have now...love him more than she ever love me...he deserve it more than me...pls...pls be happy...nvr be drown in the sea of hatred...i didn't get through it,cos i'm not tt kind of person...hope he n she isn't also...
Msg shiman just now...i still wanna know wat story i make up,n wat make her felt tt i lie to her...realli wanna know...can't even give me a chance to change ma?this is something no matter how hard i try i still cannot achieve de...unless she tell me...i will explain to her wat i remembered...pls tell me...haiz...clarisse ask me y i keep thinking about the past?my answer is becos i make a mistake...i shall remind myself everyday,not to make this mistake again in the future...cos time cannot turn back...if can i wanna go back 01012006...cos me how much life spend also nvm...i realli wanna change n repay my mistakes...
Heng,lucky today meet clarisse,if not i realli going to become rotten apple liao...tml how?muahaha meeting erlina...hoho finally got time liao...told clarisse on msn...wanna meet erlina worst then meet queen elizabeth...always busy de...then evening meeting kenny tan...talk about some business...k la,say the fact,nothing to hide...macao casino hiring f n b staff... giving out salary of 8000 macao money...kenny say is around 3000 sing...if it's non contract base,i can go there work 3 months then come back wat...i can tell eve to hold my debts till 3 months later i one lump sum give her...then 2nd sgt M i borrow from my mother 1k first return him,then come back return everything loh...9000+ leh...try to spend lesser over there then everything settle liao...maybe i will still encounter n learn somethings over there right?ideal hor?but how about ebi n bengo?i realli dunno sia...so must c how...can't carry out with these plan so easily...haiz...they onli intake 40 ppl...good lobang...dunno la,c how...tired liao...sleep first...today sleep alot sia...haha...my heart's tired le...good night...sing well tonight,Presario...