Erm....wake up today at 2,then go for lunch....y issit chicken rice again...then go pet shop...took some photos...but no mood to up load....then come back home do some stuff,send some resume...then bring ebi to pet shop again,then bring bengo for a walk then come back...bath, then send resume again...after tt went for a jog...the total route would be for around 6 km...then half way fall out at 4 km...expected,cos i dunno how many donkey years nvr run liao...can run 4 km already good...got feeling wanna fall out at 1 km,but force untill 4 km tt time wan to vomit then i stop....haiz,bo bian...sunday promise myself run again...sunday i quite free...no nowadays i quite free....haiz...fuck up mood...y?y so fuck up?not much reason can spoil my mood la...
After my run,i go coffee shop drink coffee,expected to c someone,but nvr c...nvm loh,enjoy my drink,suddenly a strange feeling came...turn n i saw them all 4...the 4 person tt leave me...erm,wat should i do?smile loh...they like pretend nvr c me....watever...finish my drink then go home...long time nvr one day bath 2 time liao...good,shall keep it up...saw deena online then have a chat...then suddenly someone knock on my door...it's them...wtf...she say she wanna get back the comic...i say i haven't prepare finish leh...y suddenly come?argue abit...then i think,aiya fuck la...since she dun mind the trouble then ok loh...slowly one stack one stack bring for her...but she cannot come into my house...promise not to let them come into my house liao....alot of books missing...some books i bought one...then she ask me,tt time u got money to buy meh?wtf?for the past one year she realli think i'm using her money all the way ah?wtf.....ask shiman,y she didn't even explain to me,wat happened?she fuck me n say, now i'm here to take back her things,i'm not going to explain anythings ok...ccb...ok fine...i finally decide...this is wat i have...believe it anot up to all of u...i dun have to explain,although it's stupid to take a few comics from u while i return most to u n even the ones i bought myself...fine....i can be generous enough to do so...this i all i have,take it or leave it...up to u to decide...the 1200 is 1200...i can give u,not a problem...u think i dun have the capability to give u,fine...i'm going to transfer u....u take it or leave it...my account no. 030-43238-0...if u dun wan just give me back,although i dun think u r tt stupid....by oct i will return u everything...dun believe also up to u...tell u truely,i dun have the guilt tt i owe u the money AT ALL!!!but i just dun wan u to be sad...ebi n bengo u wan u take it,dun wan i got my own way....i dun hate u nor do i love u all anymore...i cut it off...dun care whether u think i just wanna look pitifull anot...up to u...from now on,i will go my way...u still wanna treat me as a friend,i dun have a problem...it's all up to u...fine?ok?happy?sactisfied?none of my problem...i gave u wat i have...cos i felt tt the love i ever put in n u dun feel it,it's my fault...n i dun care wat the fuck u all think...had enough of this already...this is all...ended...next time c me on street still wanna take me as a friend n call me or wat do so,i dun mind having a hi bye friend...but i know it's impossible...
Suddenly,jer call me after i shut the door...talk with him n show all my bu shuang-ness...fuck la...these ppl r not going to move my mood anymore...just remember c watever it's their's just collect n give back...dun fuck care liao...now looking at the comics...wtf...damn messy...tml really must settle it...fuck...my patient has already reach...so enough of it...after talking to jer...now i think...where the hell is the problem...for wat i think right?but i suddenly got a feeling tt something is wrong....after analysing everyone of them...their character...erm....it's regarding jer's question..."do u think u realli understand eve?" put me into this doubt...recall how i feel...it's really a question mark to me y shiman will turn 180 degrees...y zhe will do so....y rong will do so...erm....think carefully...i always felt tt rong is the smartest...but....erm....think carefully again....y do i have this thinking?remember one time,eve is playing chinese chess with me...letting go a horse a cannon a car becos of my experience...she will still lose...but higher chance of winning onli...but rong is beside her teaching her...n in fact i lose...i can win rong,but i nearly lose n i learn not to depend on my experience too much...tt's y i got this thinking tt rong is the smartest...remembered,when i play international chess with eve tt time...i just learn...she too...but y she still win me?becos tt time i dun have experience to relay on,tt's one of the reason...other than tt?she's smart....this is the ans...rong is a person tt take friendship very hard...i ever had a quarrel with him about eve...i wanted to say sorry,but i just hold my pride...eve told me tt he told her i ever said tt she stay at my house is just for me to fuck...this is wat eve told me...issit true?rong didn't confront me...rong is a person tt treasure friendship but will be very cb when the friendship ends...but he's not as petty as tt...so where's the problem?zhe is a person tt is smart n look smarter than how he is...has hidden high ego like jer,but the problem is eve n him know for long time...seriously,i always felt tt i know his character well,but i dun think so sometimes,cos he himself also in a lost...in this point of view,he definately will stand at eve side...shiman,i always felt tt she is the most unbright in them all...n very faithfull towards his bf...this is wat i c...or issit wrong?i dunno...so wat's the conclusion?seems all the love i put in to her,has all turn 180 degree in her mouth...recalling....how she do tt when i say i wanna break with her at the start of 3 months?alot of things she said...how she shivers when she go mad....how she comes back crying tt melt my heart tt time...wat she say when she's 'sleeping'....how she say she wanna revenge on her ex bf....remember one thing,she told me tt she's a much better drinker than me on our final break up...then tt night at ah di's house,she drink realli very little....came back tt time she's so drunk n said so many things...wtf...finally i saw the truth behind...alot of things went wrong...a clever web of lie...no one escape,no one tries...i'm the first to try...cos now i had already cut off everything...cos tt time i said she's the closest,standing behind me...n i mean it...so i can't c anything...now i realli know...good for her to leave me...if my analysation is false,it's also good...but i got confident tt it's true...how about them?they in it...n it's seems so late...a sentence,weak meat,strongs eat...this is the principle in this world,n love breaks it...onli can say whether the love is true n strong enough...i mean the person tt is showing it...i'm not tt strong tt time...but i have faith in u guys....take care man....becos of u all,i get stronger,n smarter....becos of u,i know how to love...thanx....bye...
A clever web of lie....i'm in it too...but now i'm out...n i myself knows how to throw tt web of lies...but becos of my conscious,it's obvious for ppl to break...erm...nvm...conclusion,having a smart gf is dangerous...critical point is how true her heart is...but it's still pretty dangerous,becos love itself will make ppl stupid...lost of logical sense...these ppl r prove,i'm the prove...so next time...find someone with true heart ba...good night...tml,it's gonna be bright...