I dreamt,she ask me:"wat is the most important thing to u..." dunno wat happened...can't remembered...i made her mad...everyone was around there,dunno y...aiya it's a dream la,how i know...i just felt tt her hatred is very horrible...can feel it just looking in her eyes...i forced a fake smile,n said:"i pity u tt,u realli knows nothing about me...the most important thing in my life had already gone...it's u,n all of u..."dunno wat happened after tt,realli havoc,then i wake up...this is a dream i had a few weeks ago,while i'm still working at g/h...y suddenly think about this?cos i had a same dream this morning,or yesterday morning,but my answer is so different...i said,"i pity u for knowing nothing...to me,nothing is not important..."but this time round noone's around...but very clearly,i can remember this part...haha funny dream ah?erm...seriously,nothing is not important to me,everything will vanish one day,but as long as i could,i will try my best to protect n treasure ba...my friends,my family,money,time,alot la...haiz...so how rotten is today...
Wake up at 11,go eat...hehe this time is prawn noodles...ah,memories again...fuck,just eat...nothing special this time...then go pet shop find sheena talk cock...actually got meet delvin de,but he last min say traffic jam,n he meeting his gf,so cancel loh...nvm la...next time ba...then go back pet shop stone for 3 hours...no la,tok cock with sheena...first time,someone point out so much mistakes in me,teach me,n i think alot...one of the subject is about self-esteem...am i confident of wat i'm doing anot...my principle,my way...seriously,i'm noone,i'm a newbie in the society,how can i be confident?thinking for dunno how long,cannot decide...n which path i'm taking,i also cannot decide...haiz...but the problems in front now,i in fact have some ideas on how i'm going to settle...trying my best la...
Then after tt,play with my dogs for awhile,then go bath,then go yishun...promise mum to go back eat de...sit inside sis room,watch Boa's mtv...haha long time nvr watch at this liao...still admire her alot...haha...after tt,9 plus meet ting n jer...sit there talk cock dunno how long...play abit of psp,then walk to maccafe...then sit at the play ground beside,wonder y i can like someone so much tt time...a person i dun realli understand her habits,ya,she's beautiful,n pretty sexy somemore...but tt one is appearance onli ma...wat i like is her character n her heart la...she's kind,soft,patient,n mature in someways la...realli loh...first time in my life tt i regretted not to break my principle,n it should be the last time liao...maybe ba,she's someone i can admire,but most probably won't have a good ending ba...dunno la...everything's too late...no point regretting...even a same scenario happen again,i will not break my principle,i will onli admire her...so no worries...things r clear...
Understand wat sheena say liao...n had chosen a path liao...becos of the past...ever not to make myself suffer so much,but yet love her,in the end was known as making use of her....not to tt extreme ba...erm...so after this lesson,i learn...loving ppl,means,do my best to make them happy...i will make any sacrifices to make them happy,onli condition is the sacrifices is fix to myself...no matter how much,no matter how tough...give them the best i could...so i decided,sleep lesser ba...a king,won't have such things as holidays...
Y i suddenly decide on tt path?becos i pissed someone off...think i lost another friend liao...think she hates me to death liao...i know i'm right...my mouth is mine...onli way to stop is to cut down my head...it's my freedom whether to speak of tt person anot...u can't stop me...i shall care for ur feelings,i shall pamper u...but not untill to this extend...i use my heart to know u,tt's y i tell u this,unless i use my brain to know u,then other way wise...so,since u feel damn fuck up,always have to be like tt,then forget it...must well i leave ur life...hope i didn't leave any unerasable foot prints in ur life...i'm also pissed,so i make a decision liao...tt's it...sleep awhile then wake up ba...haha total spend 1hr 40 mins to walk home from amk...tt's fast...haha...night night,erm i mean morning...