Often wonders...is there realli god anot?if there is,seriously loh...from young god been pampering me...he always give me wat i wan...i wan rain,he give me rain,i wan sunshine,he give me sunshine...like telling me,no matter wat i choose,he will give me...but it's my choice,n not to regret...wat am i to him?i was ever lost,n think,wat type of gals i wan...seen alot of types of gals...sluts,bitches,good gal,fat gal,'motherly' gal...alot la...these kind of gals appear in my life when i ask,wat if i am with this kind of gal...funny...just like he knows wat i think...when i was thinking,give me a gal tt look abit bitchy bitchy de,but actually is opposite in personality,n is realli willing to commit to his bf de...knows how to fight,very clever till can challenge me de...single eye lid de,tall tall de,n mix blood de...of cos must be quite beautiful la...haha...guess who comes?think ppl reading this should know ba...i realli think like tt,n she realli comes...when i was too weak,n dunno wat to do tt time...i get a great fall...n alot of fall just come after tt...ya sometimes i felt tt i'm damn sway,but another point of view...this is the only way to let me stand up again....force me to the extreme with no other choice...n i will stand up again...spoon feeding me will not help me in anyway....not knowing how to treasure,he will let me lost ppl tt is ever most important to me...now,i regret,will they come back?a feeling is impossible,n in my heart also felt tt,come back liao also will not be so close as ever le...i onli wish one thing,pls help them like how u help me...pls...sometimes ppl need to get whack then will wake up one...just like me...now,i'm lost again,haha not in the sense which way i'm going,n is wat type of gals i wan for the rest of my life...erm...the criterial very funny...dun laugh orh...must know how to dance de,skinny,but abit bit more meat than her...not too tall like her,not too short like miss chandra...hehe...white white de...like her la...must be super faithful to me de...must be super willing to commit to me de,like her la...must know or at least very willing to learn the languages n dialects i know de...must be kind n totfull n patient...must be very soft(wen rou),but willing to bring out anything tt she felt tt i do wrong at tt very moment de...must be very crazy like me at times,but very sweet like me (-_-""")at times de...must treasure me de...must be very cute n cheerful at times,n very mature at times also de....another thing very important de...she cannot affect my 3 things...my career,my family n friends...therefore,there must be extreme trust n honesty...me,i will definately show trust n honesty...erm...this can say after so long,the most perfect gal i can think of liao ba...erm...of cos,the appearance must be....orh hohoho!!! tt one ah....haha...let's c...wat happened today...
Reach home at 6 plus this morning...nearly 8 then sleep...aiya,told myself dun sleep too much liao,in the end 12 then wake up...wake by jin wei somemore...call me out for lunch n kopi...then ok loh...meet up with him,then go for lunch at market,then go around n talk about g/h matter...he is the one tt intro me to g/h...haha indeed,there is alot of memories there in me ah...cannot finish talking about it de....but too bad,it's memories le...i know one day i will leave,but wat can i do?do i treasure the ppl there?ya,but dun think much of them treasure me...haha politics gao gao...most probably alot of ppl still dun trust me,some still lost,whether to trust me anot...but i heard from daddy say he heard ppl say i very innocent...for nothing kanna this kind of things...but,keke,think it's his way to comfort me ba...forget it...i try my best to help them le...n i will treasure this memories till i lost them...
Then after tt go sim lim...think i saw hui fen there...erm...dunno....then chat with him alot about using of money....cos i c the way he use money realli,make ppl envy n jealous...but i also worried for him...haha,he knows,n his new gf is controlling him like siao,but he already make it a habit liao...slowly loh....erm hope he has a good gf this time...cos,he is someone tt is very pure in relationship de,those who knows him well should know la...haha...haiz...one blink eye 2 years liao...down there go a few rounds,look a few things then go far east...sit down la kopi,then the real problem comes...
Was lost these few days on which way am i going,finally yesterday make a decision liao...finally got strong self esteem liao...very confident of my principle,my way,my memories...wat i can remember,all r true,my truth...noone can move them,this is my life...promise myself,going to use my brain n my heart,to continue this path,treasure n protect everything,till they vanish...so sure of this b4 i sleep yesterday...then when meet jin wei tt time,he tell me something...think tt is one of the main purpose y he find me...he is one of the person tt look highly on me...erm...he give me something,something i realli need,n wanted last time...but huge pressure will sure fall on me...do u have the self-esteem to take it?this is just like a question ask by god...keke again,in my life...of cos,i accept this challenge...i have confident in me...showing me alot of things after tt...go sight seeing...haha...ask him,how fast u going to go?he said,asap....haha hope this is a true opportunity,dun dua me again...but b4 tt i need a job ma...so ask him his company need ppl to peng ba gua anot...think have ba...haven't confirm...hehe the pay not bad leh...the faster i am the more i earn leh...if i can work at his speed for 8 hours,hohoho...think can get more than g/h work double everyday...hohoho...i wanna peng ba gua!!!tml maybe will meet him again for more,but need bring ebi go sterilise n bengo for vacination first...tu so long liao...finally....hoho...
I chosen this path...a path where few can realli survive n not giving up...i decide,like i say,a king won't have jokes...i mean it...i'm tired now...but,i will nvr lie down...i will move on n be strong,cos if i lie down,who can they lie on?i'm the last,youngest...whether i'm extra anot,i dun matter anymore...i'm given so much,just as i said the god pampers me...so all this tt was given,i will put it to good use,not to disappoint mum,sis,bro,dad,n one year ago tt 'her'...