Haha,finally got the time for my presario...think he had a good rest these few days...been working,midnight shift...long time haven't been working at these kind of timing...realli,can't fit in...the working environment dun suits me,the timing dun suits me...i'm not suitable for this job...this is wat i heard,when i was asking the new timer how they think of this job...haha ya me too...but becos of the money,i can almost suit any kind of job...as long dun call me to sell my body or do anything illegal can already...i can suit anything becos of money...
Basically i'm consider a bar tender there...but i'm actually a glass washer...first time in my life i broke so many glass in just tt few hours...cut my hand plenty of times...so?try to cover,dun let ppl know...hehe...i not purposely wat...the music there is god damn loud loh...n i'm standing beside the bloody sub-woofer...think it's a few times bigger than jin wei's...going deaf...the vibration is so much,tt u can c the water n the glasses dancing...i drop my glasses a few times becos of the vibrations...then can't actually hear wat others talking,n they cannot hear me too...so it's realli a troublesome thing to communicate...making me fed-up,but just try to control...n the corner i'm standing the first night is damn squeezy,ppl wanna use my basin have to squeeze in with me...the whole bar is possible to squeeze onli 12 person,where all of them can't even move or turn...but at most of the time there r more than 6 person squeezing there...ah!!! crazy...the place is damn dark,my onli light resource is the fucking light beside the basin,but the light also blink like the disco light,sometimes turn off,have to whack him up...haiz...the rubbish bin is beside me,everybody seems like throwing rubbish at me...got a few times i feel tissue paper throwing on my head n bounce into the bin...n noone is saying sorry,perhaps i can't hear...bottles r throwed in,n the shattered piece always fly out,cut my hand twice...arghhh....nvm...T_T...
Second night better,stay at bar A...they say more tough leh...but i dun think so,brighter there,more babes to c...n is further away from the sub-woofer,got space for me to dance somemore...haha...ok la,basically the ppl there r quite friendly...the supervisor seems to be ok,n from SHATEC too,the captain there is a encik,like csm age like tt...also quite friendly...willing to teach,n not angry when i have mistakes...erm...n the senior there also not bad...got 1 senior call kelvin lim,i call him information counter...haha,first day i go there saw him,he start to tell me which gal attach,which gal married,which gal lesbian,which gal got potential...haha without me asking...wtf...n i know,my teacher,Joan,is married...look like at least 25,but she say she's 20...noone believe man...but alright la...treat me quite good,but personality wise,i dun think i'm interested...then got one gal call xin ling,wow...this one is good...abit quiet,abit shy,but very caring...like irene la,i dun talk to her,she won't talk to me...but she try la...ask me how old,wat i'm doing all this...wasted...too noisy there...if got chance realli wanna chat with her...kelvin say she les leh...aghh,dunno la...cannot be friend meh...erm,she's beautiful,short hair,n like to smile...shy shy type....hehehe...also quite tall neh,slim slim one...hehe my type...hoho...was thinking...bloody hell,i'm there to work loh...arghh...dun anticipate,dun analyse,dun guess,dun imagine...but i still imagine...fuck up...
Ha, in the end i'm still a man...n i'm single...but since i'm a human,i have to control all my desire to a certain extend...now,work come first...there r plenty of gals around me....there r all type of ways tt i will know my next one...therefore just leave it first...work hard on my future...work like dog...everytime when i go for break,i realli wonders,y am i here,y r all these fatigue in me...cos i nvr study,i dun have a degree...watever...perhaps it's true...but i believe in knowledge,not certifications...i'm born a entrepreuner,so knowledge n skills r definately important to me...i think alot...when i come to one thing,for example,learning the drinks in bar,i put my 100% focus on it...no matter how tired,tt time i'm totally awake n fresh...but of cos,my energy will be wipe off bit by bit,i can stay full focus for 3-4 hours,then i will take a deep breath,relax my mind n focus again,last another 1-2 hours,n then again...till i going to give up...i will normally have a break...sitting down there,stare into the blank...wow,lost...i know i look like a idiot then,but i can hear someone telling me,"wa,cannot take it liao...i wanna go home...still got how long more to go,i can't make it liao..."i will straight away say,"fuck off" no matter how hard,how tough,i will go through it...haha till now i'm still surviving...as long i wan to,i may fail,but i will nvr give up...felt tt he is reckoning my will,but i will not let go...definately...
Haha,been raining in the midnight for the past few days...yesterday,after work,jin wei call me out again...wa lau,after work i almost fall dead,still wanna call me out...haiz,ok loh, eat breakfast with him ba...go my house there,he say he dun wanna walk too far,so he wanna go orchard c got things to eat anot...5 plus leh,hotel breakfast also haven't prepare yet...then he decided to go a place to eat...Changi Airport...wa!!!!he mad one la!!!rather drive so far then walk abit more...crazy fellow...nvm,i always so steady one...go there eat mac donald,cos i told him,i dun wan him to always treat me....make me pai seh...eat cheap la...then he start to pshyco me to play game with him...think he damn boring la...told him i quit playing game already...watch movie also quit liao,onli watch a few comic every week...but he insist loh...try to say a 6 year old boy also can play well the first time ah watever...okok,just play la...he gonna pay it for this,cos i realli left with no money already...go peninsular plaza...haiz...play c&c,3 games...first time i cannot make it,2nd time manage to win...3rd time i even win him in statistic neh...haha think i got talent la...come on,i'm a game player last time too...hehe...till the last part,we r searching the surviver on the map...think onli left with a small building,tt's y can't even c...so go search search....then i fell asleep...cb...i'm so tired loh...n it's boring to search for tt kind of small thing...knowing i will win for sure,so no excitement,tt's y...haiz...finally found it,spend less than 2 second to finish it off...yeah...go home go home....then he say he hungry,go eat again...hougang...wah....okok....eat liao go home,then he say wanna go jurong somemore...ah!!!i cannot already...ya i still can move on,but there's no point to make myself suffer loh...then he drive me home...finally,i can sleep...haiz....sleep 5 hours,force myself up again...got things to do la...but surprisingly,not tt tired though...erm...think it's time to sleep liao...i shouldn't have any human clock in me,i can sleep when i wan...to be flexible la,tml, got another interview...hope this one can suit my plan well...nights...