Tuesday, July 17, 2007

–verb (used without object)

7. to be concerned or solicitous; have thought or regard.

–verb (used with object)

1. to treat or gratify with extreme or excessive indulgence, kindness, or care.

First, i know very basically,u can't realli climb in this world if u will go mad after hearing some names... even can,u will often be not happy...this is the very basic i know... ever told u 2 years ago... ur temper will be ur greatest weak point... y i tell u this? dun i concern or had thought for u? from the day i meet u with jer,how many times i make u happy?knowing i eat tt thing will lao sai untill jia lat jia lat,but y i still eat?hoping my stupidness will at least exchange a smile from u...from the day we meet...till we r today...how many times u burst?how many ppl had already told u tt u r not correct?eileen,bao zhu,did they?jer may be abit wat at sometimes la,but did he told u tt u r wrong too?i dunno la,but even not,i will still stand firm...changing individual temper maybe hard,i've been through myself,not easy...everyone has temper,but wat take u so long?just do this,take a deep breath n ask y r u so pissed...becos of the past?keke wat is past is past...hatred can't solve a shit,onli make u painful...y not let go?u burst,anyone will give a damn?i'm sorried n afraid tt u will cry again...but i know...ting,u r not a small gal liao...can dun always be like tt?when i'm down,i may not realli helped u,when i'm up,i won't wan u to be down...u too,dun feel my tt,er-hum,'brotherly' love ma?haiz...fine,up to u...ade tt problem i'm sorried too,but i shouldn't be the one tt tells u right?n should i be the one tt be fucked by u?ur anger lies on y as a friend she nvr tell u her problem,correct?then should i be the one tt get those scoldings?dunno...n this matter,i should get scoldings,i should say sorry,but dun u think u very different from others?try saying anybody's name or anything u wan,c will i burst anot?u can call eve's name,or whoever tt i regret treasuring,or tell me wat they doing on bed...dun think i will burst,cos i imagine tt everyday n use it to control my grief n hatred.... wat is past is past... every body have things tt they mind ppl mentioning it or gossiping it... but wat does it matter? ppl scold my mother i also can laugh... does it matter? i speak her name or say any other thing tt is not pleasant to u,does it matter? seriously,if u r not like tt jer will do anything? i know ur stomach pain,but should i be the one tt care for u tt much where ur bf is down there?haiz...dunno la...pls give comment if u think i'm wrong...u wanna call me n fuck me also can,u wanna come find me n slap me also can...i dun mind if u wanna tell me i'm wrong,with a logical reason...n of cos i will say thank u to u...cos i know my mistake n i can change...this is wat i learn... think carefully,everybody tt cares ur feeling n pamper u... always dote u,avoiding wat u hate n giving wat u wan,issit realli fine anot? but if u realli pissed with me,if u realli wanna give up on our friendship.....erm...it's ok de...just hope tt u will be doing fine in the future...hope tt u n jer won't have tt kind of super big quarrel anymore...small one is fine la...haha...i truthfully,sincerely wish tt...u all to be happy...after knowing me for so long...u have good memories ba,u should know how a person am i...look back into those memories...when crisis land on u,wat am i doing?no need tell others...think urself...doesn't matter anybody say i act wei da or hyprocrite,this is it...this is my heart,my truth...think urself...no matter wat happened,my name is in ur contact list....(erm i hope so ba...)i will be there for u,till i'm gone...

Ah....talk about sad thing....ok get ready ur phone to call me n fuck me up...erm..........................i gave my dogs to my ex-gf,eve................... haiz...ya curse me,fuck me...watever....reason for giving them away...1st,i live in hdb,those 2 cannot be license...it's illegal...if they kanna caught,will be send to spca,n i will get fined...plus noone take them for 3 months,they will be killed...2nd,they bark n stinks,ppl r complaining liao...make me scare i will c police when i go home....3rd,i need to earn money for my family n myself n them...the hours i left,i can't bring them out often....4th,if my grandma pass away,where can they go?i know these problems long time ago,if u follow my blog la,but i fucking make tt mistake again...i didn't face the fact...ccb...cos i she bu de they all...i'm selfish...my fault again...they realli give me lots of memories...tt's the onli reason y i dun wan them to go...but just as i think i passed the god's test,i failed today...cos i didn't make the decision immediately...fuck right?but lucky i still make the decision...scared...everytime i think i'm strong n mature enough liao,i will kanna test de....got so many fucking coincidence ma?haiz...so scared...but i'm ok liao...bring it on...i have the self-esteem again...come on,u fucking cb...i dun scare...

Meaningfull neh...haha today learn alot from sheena too...alot from uncle david also...when the time is right liao,realli wanna find him to be my master....these r my masters...thanx alot...now still chatting with clarisse,she also inspire me man...life indeed a learning process...another point of view which i know,but didn't realli think of it too much on myself de...i always c on how others learn...didn't think it on myself...getting into so much problems,i learn le ba...haha thanx...tml,another day to move on le...sleep ba...