Erm~~~today very meaningful neh...y neh...i think alot of things right leh...last time just after tt case,i always kanna stuck...in g/h always no time to communicate n think...now...think in my room...door locked...but felt tt my brain think much further away from this 5-angle room...can say i always spend more time on thinking...y i nvr kanna the end of PPD n die leh?PPD can kill de leh...but i nvr leh...cos i got another gift,imagination...i think of the future...i know most probably won't happen after i imagine finish...but when i'm imagining,it's like will sure happen like tt...so happi...then think again...so this is wat i wan...then work hard for it loh...ya so easy,so simple,when things change i change my imagination again loh...erm...like tt also not bad de ma...the importance of day dream...haha...
Send bengo back to eve's house...haiz...everytime meet her sure quarrel de...dun wan le la...so give her bengo then faster go...go to the coffee shop we last time always go one...tok to the servers there...haha long time no c...everybody say i skinny liao...wa kao...if they were me, maybe they also...haha sit down have a coffee n food...haiz,alot of memories loh,close my eyes,open again,can remember all the table settings there...change alot...remember one person...Li Hui Ching...i call her ah ching la...from ipoh one...erm...a gal tt is my dream gal type also...haha...she ah...we always sit there talk cock de ma...she's gone...'ah ching eh,u know after u go,how many things happened ma?'haiz...she totally out of my life...think at australia now ba...maybe married liao also...haha...she's not young le...3 year older...how i wish we can be like the past,sit there when u after work,we just talk,no stress,nothing....just say wat we wan...haha...after tt walk the same route to 170 busstop...i always walk like tt after i send eve home...it's the last bus...then take 66 back home...
After awhile,eve called...wtf...huh?call me go back take back bengo...her mum dun wan...then i say it's their own fuck problem la...u dun wan then leave bengo on the street loh...fuck...then hang up...erm...aiya my heart so soft...call back...'ay u put him on the street already anot?i go back take now...'first...it's really not fair for him...i know,if i have him things will be much easier...they all 2 hor...100+100=200...they all is x...i can go crazy with 2,but one is much easier...so wat if eve say her mum also dun wan ebi...ha,it's ur own fuck problem...i give u the dog it's ur responsibility loh...since u wan...out of my problem liao...relationship onli bring u more weak points...now i cut so many liao...i'm not inhuman,i'm not machine...but for some situation,u need sacrifices to make things for others better...if my little sacrifices for bengo will make eve better,her mum better,my lonliness lesser,n more time n attention for bengo...think the sacrifices r alright...just like,my life for alot of ppl's life,maybe ok i think also...depends la...also tot of this,a difference between a conquror n king...one will think he have to change into a inhuman creature tt onli he can win...become no sense of feelings,no family,no friends,no lover,he can sacrifice any of these for his victory,his world...another will think,he need some sacrifices for other's benefits...as small sacrifices as possible for as big benefit as possible...some sacrifices he may feel pain,he may cry...but after wiping off he must make another cruel decision for the benefit...for himself first,cos he will share it with others as much as possible...so...who will think the first way,who will think the second one?hehe make a guess...
After tt,talk cock with eve...c her current situation...huh?she dun wanna become air stewardess liao...wanna become police...wtf!!!! shock the shit out of me...haha good luck ba...erm...think she mature enough to think...good luck ba...then stuck at bukit timah for more than an hour...no cab wanna take us...so sad...raining heavier somemore...bengo shiver like hell...he now my son liao...onli left...hug him,n console him...call cleo pets,sheena say no transport for today liao...wth...sian..how?then call jin wei to come down save me....lucky he nothing to do...wahaha...sit there wait dunno how long...he realli very cold n scare of cars...be brave boy...i'm here...finally he come...haiz...bengo drip saliva n vomit when he sit car leh...very troublesome...but...he's my son...then meet clarisse n jin wei for coffee,they all from g/h de leh...then go home rest...ah,a good news...my rotting apple episode only will reach part 10 liao...haha...friday go zouk work...yeah...remember bro call also...erm...dunno la...finally...things clear alot liao...go eat come back,eve got somethings to tell me...ask me alot of things la...dunno y...she goes back to the one 1 year plus ago...erm...good luck ba...erm...someone accuse me...having an affair with her when i'm with eve...got abit lost control...but immediately knows y...it's becos the memories...these r my treasure...actually doesn't matter anymore...but,dun wanna anyone to pollute it...but eve ah...u can believe her ma?i know the ans...but forget it...it's clear whether i have tt affair anot...so didn't bother liao...
Chat with qin just now...missed her...tell her wat i'm thinking around 2 years ago...erm...but make it clear,it's past...ya now still abit miss her...if she now break liao,then be with me can i accept?i will try to...but best not...dun wan to have weak point now...i can't realli strive up if i have this relationship,cos for my gf,my wife...nothing can exchange her...so as long i have a real gf now,i will get stuck,unless,she's willing to wait for me to complete my task,if not,dun waste each other's time...
Things seems to be ok liao...left with this sloth in me...erm...lazy...engine dun wanna start...slack too long liao...tml...i will start it...hehe ya,didn't run these few days...got reason hor...cos my right leg injured...if i realli force hor,realli pointless...maybe tml or sat ba...within this week...time's still running neh...not much time to waste actualli...night...