Acutally wat does tt mean?dictionary have different meaning between faith n faithful...so wat is it?ppl say faithful to god...faithful to their partner...n wat's love does it gonna related with it?erm...word changes their meaning when read by different ppl,in different perspection...this is wat i found,especially these kind of word...
To me...faith is something like trust...in a way like confidence too...using onto other ppl...faithful,means loyalty...faithful to god,believe in god...a much heavier word then believe i felt...n love...someone's blog ask this question too...someone who likes to take dictionary out to check...this word realli have alot of meaning...using at different ppl different time...y u love a person...i say this in bgr situation...ask bee bee,y she love a person...from like become love...she say got feelings loh...gals always wanna use this way to fix the meaning of love...a feeling... when u dun c him u miss him...when u c him u r shy n happy...i had this feelings 11 years ago...think it's the last time...i remember my smile in the mirror...10 years later i saw it again,on another person...ade...when she pick up her bf phone call...tt's the smile,which makes me gave up on going after her...she's so happy,hope she is still till now...
Even a phone call can make a person smile like tt...erm,this is love to her ba...to some ppl they relate to family...bgr in relate with family...love this person so much,even how much this person betrays,how many things happen,they r still together...nvr give up on him...i do have the same concept about love when she leave me...haha but when i c this gal,i doubt whether this is love...this is love to her...
To some guys in this world,love is just a game...a way to manipulate others feelings...make tt person can't leave u even u betrays her,make a person so happy when she c u...normally they call this fishing tactic...human wanted to play with this till they even come out with books...haha realli nvr bluff ppl one...but is tt love?in fact,now she said tt i'm the one tt is playing this game...well...believe it anot,i deny...i know how to play,but i can't...cos i extremely disagree tt this is love...
Human r just so complicated...i'm damn complicated i should say....haha just a word they can't even find a fix meaning...to me,ways of love realli got alot...but to me,meaning of love very simple...a feeling...mixture of emotion n logic...first when u c someone tt realli attracts u...u ask urself,will i have future with this person?will i be able to put in all my trust to this person?will i be faithful to this person?no matter wat happen to her,will i still be with her?normally these answer can't be found when u first attract to tt person...so onli way is try first loh...wahaha...starting u may have tt kind of c her will be happy feeling...soon will change...become c her will be peaceful...every morning when i kissed her i c tt smile...kitten smile...haha i feel so peaceful...felt tt even as much pain i suffer,she will still be with me,not say protect me,at least comfort me... but it's all fake!!!cos she's not faithful...just when i said to myself...she worth me loving...all the questions i ask above...all r positive...n she just go...whether she fall for him when she's with me i dunno,i dun bothered to know anymore,but y i say she's not faithful is becos,she dun believe tt i'm loving her...as simple as tt...her beliefs changes...into i'm using her...alright...fated,i have nothing to say...
Talk to this gal just now...she had this problem about faith...i already tired of acting anymore...nvm...i have to....dunno,become my instinct...if i nvr act,i will on the spot fuck u...to my point of view u r definately unfaithful...but u dun felt so,cos ur bf also not faithful once...u choose to forgive but nvr forget...gals r like tt i know...so wat's the point getting together?using tt as the first excuse to be unfaithful...same to ting...u can't forget,then y bother to forgive?forever there will be this mark in ur heart...either bringing it as an excuse,or an excuse to quarrel...stupid right...up to u anyway...n gal u still dare to tell me the pheromone thingy...regardless fake or true...i was so fucking piss n become so sarcastic just now...well done...pheromone,u said it's a smell tt will attract ppl together right?the stronger it is the more u can't reject right?so wat if tt's true?is tt a reason,or an excuse?so,all guys tt is outside fucking around after their marriage,they all can use this as a reason,so everyone will felt tt it's ok man,not their fault...yeah right...not applicable to me even the whole world say so...sorry if it's too harsh,but just let me burst awhile after having a few weeks of acting show at work...
From my point of view,it's definately possible tt u have tt kinda feelings to others beside ur partner...of cos,this world so big...there is so much choices...but since u have already choosen one,n had been together for so long,u should be already decided tt he should be the one isn't it? or maybe,u dun felt tt he's the one,u r just having him by ur side so u will feel better,u nvr think of getting married with him...if tt so,i got nothing to say n will retrive all the words above...but tt's not the case...u wanted to get married with him...to me,marriage is just a stupid ceremony...a way to tell ppl around u tt u can have babies n houses legally...to me,tt's all...so since u choosen,then just be faithful...2 choices obviously,one break with ur bf n go with tt guy,another cut off all feeling u have for tt guy n be faithful to ur bf...onli a second's job to decide,if u realli love ur bf... c how long u spend...tt's y i say u unfaithful...
Ah,scoldings finish...like it or not,fine...just so fucking tired of acting...if u ask me how many friends i have,where i wear my mask to know,close ones there r more than a dozen,not close ones,oh man,too much...but if u ask me,those who c my true colours n still my friend,not more than 3 i guess...so u decide...i scold u untill like tt,becos i felt tt u r wrong,i'm faithful as a friend...i love u as a friend...all the ppl,the past,the recent ones,i use this way to let them know wat kind of friends i am...tt's y left so little now...u choose...analyse for u somemore...follow the crowd,or be tt stupid unique ones...
Now i know who to choose...even eve comes back,i won't be interested anymore,becos she dun have faith in me...i will nvr settle myself with this kind of person...naive right...faith is just a dream...just felt tt whole world onli i have faith...all dun have...not happy with my saying then show me ur faith...prove me wrong then...haha...
Finally,i'm getting tired...the beer effect...golden can't drink too slow either...if not,in the end will be like water...erm,nvm...so nice...n gal,i'm still alive...i still have my aims...i won't be gone so fast,if u concern...i take all these painfulness as challenges...c,my new work place i already got champion for longest working hours...62 hour per week...every one got 168 hours a week,i left with 106 hours...more than half u c...nothing great to me actually...but they just felt tt i'm insane...if management allow,i hope i can go up to 100 hours...but but....haiz,still too little...100 hours times 6 per hour equal 600,times 4 weeks,2400...heard there's CPF...20% means i take home onli 1920...where got enough?fuck...how?finally today able to be on floor already...hope tml too...means my tips coming....hoho...have to fucking memorise the menu n the POS machine(Point Of Sales)...this is wat i more scare than the horrible working hours...life is full of stress...no,i mean challenges...i must have extreme faith in myself...
Just written a new song on my blog...by laruku again...this song,is memorable...it's about faith...changed to english b4,but not nice...hehe ok nights...