The key to unleash a hatred in me...love...treating someone so well,not to mention wat i had done...just becos,keeping a secret,just becos mentioning a name...well...this is wat i get...well...really well done humans...i'm nothing,i'm noone...i make mistake,n am sincere to change...this is wat i get...a human mouth will twist things round...twist love into sickening shit,n abuse...well done this is wat i get...i will remember for life...get prepared...
Loving her like this...all the way...even when make her angry also just becos i care for her...well done,this is wat i get...treating him so well,he just taking me like stupid,dun bother to reply msgs,dun bother to reply miss call....well done...taking him as a good friend,telling him my plans,telling him how i feel sometimes,always try to help him,he dun give a fuck n just leave me like tt...although i may say bad things about him to his gf,but tt's the fact,scare wat?if she loves u,u think she care?well done...treat her like a brother,try the best to tell her every fact i know...n in the end no trust had been given,although she say she trust me to the end...say onli...well done....love her so much,try to treat her the best i have,i'm just a human...how can i give u everything u wan at any moment u wan...i'm a human,tt's y always have to love myself...i already trying the best to give all...this is wat i get....very well done...treat him like a elder brother...admire him,respect him...just becos of mistrust,my fault,how many sorry also useless...n this is wat i get...well done...love her,always try to hope i can get her,but isn't possible,but at least i'm willing to be there to help if she wans....is this wat u meant?all the while?the love is not onli love,it's admiration...so all the while the angel tt i admire is just a fucking hypocritical shit?!?very good...
So is there realli someone tt worth me caring,is there someone worth me loving?she say yes,she belief everyone will be worthy for someone,whether they finds it anot...well,i may not find it...n u think fairy tale ah?very well...i had enough...always thinking,y is there always nothing to motivate me...y am i still at this stage?heard a voice a few months back....always trying to deny tt is the fact...but issit?"ur hatred is not enough..."wat should i do?after tonight there will be an answer...
Anyway,y i always mentioning eve's name,not becos i can't let go...it's just tt she's still my friend i guess...i will not be angry or watever if anybody mention her...just a normal friend to me...someone i know...i still have alot to explain myself against wat she write...but,wat's the point?there r misunderstandings,there r things tt r not the fact,there r things tt she guesses...but wat's the point to explain...i dun need to clear ur doubts,dun need to clear the misunderstandings,dun need to explain her stupidity n her childishness...live urself,die urself...as a friend,a god bro...there is no more way i'm going to help u...there's no more way u r going to let me help u...n it's pointless to help u...i'm already stretching out this far,just tt u prove urself to me...worthless...
I know myself....i said ppl r hypocritical shit...i am one myself...ain't u?living for so old,u should know the reason...i say ppl childish,me too...cos i have emotions...i say u r worthless,me too...i dun need to explain this,u have ur own perspective...free to think free to say...nights...