Chapter LXXVI: I'm not ready to lose
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Ya, where i go yesterday? i nvr online...haha KTV!!!After almost half a year i finally go KTV liao...so happy...with phoebe racheal n terence...wahaha...but found tt my skill drop like shit... voice cannot pull high n loud...so sad...nvm...haha...practice loh...
Actually yesterday i 11-5 de... then 2 ppl mc...yvonne ask me wanna extend anot...then i think if i extend more money leh..y not...anyway racheal also 10 then finish...ok loh...correct choice....yesterday my tip almost 60 i guess...work smoking point ma... hoho... after tt go eat swenson then go ktv party world... haha spend all my tips...so basically like no tips...haha then after tt reach home 5 am...sleep till 9.30 go work again...sad...god damn tired...milky also mc today,then i scare will have problem,so i start work early...in the end c alot of ppl appear...chey...i dun start early also no problem la...anyway today also got 40 bucks tips i guess...hoho...
Morning alfresco,after break i request from simon tt i wanna work bar leh...then he think think think...then he let me take tap n trophy...hoho new location unlocked...hoho now i felt tt like play game loh...have to pass different level,then have to face different boss...then will unlock different location on the map...hoho...now left with 3 place haven't unlock...one is bar,annex n greeter... alfresco also haven't fully unlock yet...erm...work hard...if this is a game, i definately not ready to lose...
This morning...damn difficult to get out of bed...haiz...then eve called...told me i still owe her 400...is 600 loh...i know how much one...haiz...her memory y still so jia lat...hope she will get better...today think about it....know y she say i treat her like tt liao...know y she acuse me liao...know y she hate me liao...most likely is becos i acuse her tt time...i didn't...but she felt so ba...seriously,i just suspect...there is no exact prove i will not acuse her de...n even there is,if she say no,i think i will also believe her...y didn't u just tell me tt u didn't?y didn't just tell me wat u wan?y didn't u just scold me?if u say there's still hope,n u wanna scold me or even beat me i will not be like this...i guess,this is wat i think tt time...was thinking,y gals always tolerate guys...today eat supper at my work place,cos got new beer come out...eee...not my type...beside me,there is a couple...the guy take drugs, the guy always go outside n find other gals...n also go find prostitute...nowadays guys like tt one ma...i won't follow the crowd of cos,but the problem is,now the gal is confronting her bf...n the bf still didn't even give her an answer whether she realli got do, or realli sorried about wat he does...i turn n c the guy....knnbccb....wat is tt fuck face sia...can c,he's not rich,a typical chow ah beng in 70's...nvr groom at all...n damn ugly...the gal is around 28 to 30 la...the guy also...but the gal look ok for her age...average or slightly above average ba...but y?y the gal have to cry to this extend?fuck up u know?am i really worst than tt guy?if u say jer,maybe he is much better than me in some ways la...but this guy?dun look educated,not rich,dun even groom...say he go jail b4 also not surprising...take drugs...n tt cock face...the most important...he dun even give a damn to the gal when she's crying...she stretch out for his hand,n tt guy is like normal expression...didn't even get a tissue or ask for napkin or wat...fuck...i'm worst than tt fucker...i so fuck up tt my gal didn't even give me tt little chance when i'm on my kneel!?!?the matter between me n her had already past,but wat i still thinking is myself...whether i'm tt fuck up...alot of the ppl tt know me always say,i sure got gf...no matter guy or gal will say so...i say i dun have like noone believe like tt...think i joking...tt means my appearance wise should be pretty good,n the way i tok etc...but wat makes me worst than tt guy?dunno...n start not to be bothered liao...fuck it...i just...seriously,my life already been in this situation,i just need to accomplish wat i wan n tt's it...no more troubles...