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Chapter LXXXV: Illusion
Wednesday, September 12, 2007


Been having alot of illusion recently...when working,always felt tt like got ppl calling my name...i cannot dun react...cos normally i maybe correct...due to over anxious working environment, plus super not enough sleep,this kind of illusions is very normal... have to use my brain to differentiate wat is real n wat's not...some r very easy to recognise,example,one of my common illusion,moving object...do u ever c french fries crawling?hoho i seen it alot of times...even at this current working place...moving plate ah,dancing fork ah,all this is like can easily know tt it's illusion...but something like disappear check,this one is a total mystery...
Key in order for this table,a very special order,potato skin without bacon n change sauce to sour cream...i even go kitchen n double check to make sure this one can do b4 keying in...then i remembered clearly i clear the potato skin plate somemore...when i going to hand over n go for lunch tt time,then i found tt,the order is not in bill...first in mind of cos,did i key it on other table...check all dun have...second issit those who already gone?check all the tendered check,no one ordered potato skin today...if manager or supervisor void order i will still c it on the screen...where the hell it goes?if i nvr key in y the kitchen will give this order?if i key in where the hell the check go?onli one way to explain...my eyes got problem...the potato skin might be right in front of me,yet i can't c...although i'm confident of the sharpness of my eyes la,but this should be the onli explaination...too bad my lunch more important...hoho...
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"Ah, illusion...just as i'm going to give up...i heard someone called me... i didn't take the next step n look back...ya,it's an illusion...an illusion i made up myself,so i will not to give up hope...i turn around,n just when i gonna walk another step,i heard another person calling my name...i turn back,feel her sadness in her msg...r this sadness becos i wanna leave?or issit for someone else?i dunno...u dun wanna tell me...y can't human be more straight forward?or am i the one tt make myself thinks tt they r not straight forward?i,as someone so worthless,have no rights to judge ppl in this sense anymore...no rights,i onli can choose where i will go...even,i'm right,perhaps,it's realli too late this time...cos it's enough,i had enough of all this...i'm realli tired...my legs r shivering,my hand can't even bring up to touch u...my eyes can't c clearly where r u...my heart,feels like gonna stop any second...forget it,tt's all...wat i left now,is the strength to take the next step,a step into the darkness..."
"Before falling down tt cliff"
By: LVYN

-ArrAnCar.

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