Erm,after yesterday's lesson i decided to observe myself...first,c where my eyes move automatically...omg...somemore i know i shouldn't look at tt direction liao my eyes still stuck there...cb...no wonder la...no wonder i keep going back to the same point over n over...then i start to observe wat i imagine during the day...like day dream la...shit man,thinking of those things...keep controlling myself not to think in tt way n look at tt way...even kanna slam untill my supervisor ahjunan also cannot save himself tt time i still find tt chance...wa,my inner self is worst then cockroach,cannot die one...haiz... after work,went out with jin wei...was thinking loh...y like tt...n somemore i still go disturb someone tt i shouldn't disturb...how ah?confuse...remember felicia said something tt make me very zai yi one...erm...tsk tsk tsk...i will not get defeated so easily de...first i must know,tt part of me is part of me...i dun die,tt part won't die...same as anger,lust,all this...i must know how to blend with it...instead,like tt i know more about myself liao...tml off...go have a good think...i will,i must find the answer...
Of cos,while i'm observing myself,another part,i mean another part of me notice someone is observing me,not onli one...basically i work there sure will be observe,from the first day, i knew it,if not so many cameras for wat...but,ppl behind tt is observing,is planning something...erm....dun fuck care,just do my best in everything,i will...