Recently always hear this song around...dunno by who,forget liao...but is a nice song... i dun even know how to sing la,but someone long ago in my life like it...i tried to find tt time,but can't find,n i didn't really put in tt effort to get it...kinda regret half a year ago,but dun realli give a damn now...erm,just a nice song...
Haiz,recently very tired of work...nothing tired about work itself...i dunno tired of wat...muscle cramp is of cos de,cos tt day play badminton too xiong already...not onli me la,everyone got play also...haiz...wednesday felicia mood swing...swing untill i very frustrated...think she pms ba...women...haiz...tt's wat i like...haha...but nvr give warning one...especially her...temper damn bad...suddenly can come n disturb me,joke with me,suddenly fuck me up,n show me tt stupid face...tt moment i nvr think of the possibility she pms,so i damn fucking du lan...wanna cry already...one more push onli i going to take off my apron i guess...lucky...dun give a damn la...told myself the next day...my purpose is to work n get paid...nothing else is going to concern me...u scold me cos i nvr do my work properly,then tell me how to work properly,i'm not so stupid tt i can't reach the level u wan ba...u scold me for nothing i will just keep quiet n go to work after u have finish ur nonsence...cos i still wan the job,i can't spoil my plan again...u wanna joke with me,i can...i can be very friendly at times...but once u turn n fuck me again,i will just be the same...u can call me moroon or bu dao wong,i dun care,tt's the best way to survive i guess...i have to...
I found tt there is something wrong with me again...always got something wrong one la,i not perfect...erm,i haven't use my brain enough...haiz,cannot like tt...cannot just becos i scare my head grow bigger then dun use my brain fully...hehe,it's just tt,working hard n working smart,i am working too hard compare to smart...not in the sence of at work,it's overall in earning money...there is still lots of way to gain money besides working alone...no matter how hard i whack no matter how many jobs i take,my income is still just able for me to survive...every month i can onli save around 500...if i use it to return my money to my family,i have nothing left...investments i need a bigger some of money...if i start saving now,maybe a year or so,i can use it easily,but the money i owe is too much loh...by working like tt i dunno need how long...time is the essence...therefore,i need more informations n lobang to built up my money...at the same time cut down my expences...n,i dun have anymore time for my emotion to take over me again...
Say is like tt say la,but due to my artistic DNA,i tense to be more emotional...n recently also found tt i like some thing tt is very funny one...i found tt i like opera...not chinese opera,it's those ang mo one...erm,will talk more about tt in next chapter...hehe...
Because of you,i tried so hard to make myself numb...because of you,i for a long time i didn't sleep well...because of you,i turn myself into a painless creature....because of you,i tried so hard to escape my fate...because of you,there is no more colour in my world...all because of you...you know who r u i'm talking about?good night...