Had been a long time i didn't update...haha something good happened ba...i consider it good ba...haha lots of ppl know now le...so i dun need to say much...onli thing troublesome is i need to change my life style...ya although my room is still as messy as b4,but soon will get it done...i mean it...
Erm...start playing game again...just for some fun ba...stopping soon...cos now i'm still planning the way i gonna start...things changes tremendously,so do plans...i can't stick with the same old thing,but my aim is somehow the same...but been spending time to adjust into this change,i realli slack down,even in work...ya picking up already,so no problem...as a stupid part timer,i still have my cpf,bonus n pay rise...wat kind of part timer am i...ya it's stupid...quarterly bonus i got 300,which is the max...n got a pay rise of 50cent per hour...mean average i can get per month last time is 1320 per month,means now i can get 1430...means still very little...minus cpf 20% equal 143 for cpf so i take home onli 1287...roughly la...but even though i'm unlucky dick,i still can get a average tips of 40 per day...means, let's times 20 days(although i guess i work more than tt...)i got around 800 bucks per month...overall more than 2k...i'm still in quite a good condition neh....:)but the shit thing is,the min 20 hour per week 2 weekend per week system does not work for me anymore...instead the management expect me to clock 50 hours n above to show appreciation of wat they done...haiz...
Spending too much liao la...say so many times i wana save,in the end while waiting yesterday after work i spend another 40 bucks...haiz...gian tt dalmore cigar malt loh...it's whisky not cigar hor...time to save le loh...must do it...cannot be like last time liao....now alot of things is different liao...
I spend lots of time to think about the future...today suddenly take out laruku's one of the earliest album out to listen..."REAL" very nice orh... so long nvr hear liao...first time hear is 8 years ago ba...haha think of alot things in the past...year by year month by month...8 years had past...how many things had happened... i once use to felt tt righteous is in my hand,but as of now...wat's right?i dun give a damn...becos of this thinking,i found out there is a broken link in my system...wat's wrong...like a machine,lossing a piece of gear most likely will lead to a disaster...erm...a lost of a nail may become lost of a horse shoe,a lost of a horse shoe may become lost of a horse... a lost of a horse will make the msg unsend,the unsend msg may just lead to a lost of a war...haiz...must stay put,hold myself up...
Think alot nowadays...should be normal ba,especially for me...carry on with this things i will not make it...planning far ahead...breaking into steps...but definately need discipline to carry out...hope my partner can follow...wth...now i'm the one tt lack of discipline loh...haiz...this feeling is kana drop from a very high place n landed in the water...need to get calm to know which way is up which way is down...swim wrong then die liao...lack of breath easy get panic,the more i struggle the worst it is...must calm down so i will float...but doesn't seems i dun do anything i will float...how?scare,confused...headache wat will happen in the future...how?i know i can de...be confident n discipline,tt's wat i need...n of cos,bravery...