Second by second, we pass everyday, some dunno where they r going, some knows... do i know? Always asking myself,wat am i achieving, suffering from all these,everyone else do,but where am i going...tomorrow.
Minute by minute, i grow old... straight to the point, am i scared of regret when i grow old lying on bed waiting for the last breath? perhaps i dun get the chance... but surely, waiting for tt last breath, regretting something i didn't do in my life? there maybe more than one thing,definately,but which is the one tt i will regret the most? i can't realli tell...now.
Hour by hour, looking back at my pass entries... how much i've changed? change back? learn,relearn... how many times, just in a short life time of 23 years,changes in me is countless... perceptions,decisions, regrets... when can i stable myself? my decision,my intelligence,my talent, n most of all,my heart? perhaps... today.
After so long, i still dun understand... life's just as this, value... man of value indeed is better than man of success as wat albert einstein had said,it's a more to an artistic point of view... who can fucking understand this when a genius scientist says this kind of things,when everyone is thinking at a logical way...my answer was tt times r different,tt's y i can't interprete wat he's meaning...but most probably,he said this near his end of life... being a man of value indeed fulfill himself better than man of success... wat he knows,wat he teaches,wat he experience... spread to ppl tt r far away from death,n spreading it down...erm,perhaps i didn't explain it good enough to let others understand...but i understand wat he mean...it's tt wat i'm craving for tml?
Think over, there's nothing much left to regret when i'm almost gone...too late,wasting time to regret n learn from mistake especially then... i should be sad over nothing... at tt time i can onli make use of all the remaining time i have to enjoy myself... but do i have anything to let me enjoy tt time?
I know wat to do next...just whether i'm going to do it,next 3 months,critical period... set alot of safety lines to help... nothings gonna go wrong, except for 7th of may... nothing to worry either,cos nothing i can decide... so just wait for time to come...
Lastly, nothing i'm gonna worry about for the remaining, i know things well far b4 then, putting me into a sense of craziness,just 'cos i forgot something... reading back may help me handle this trouble once again... numbness, i deserve,i know hell well wat i deserve, so, let's just get to sleep hoping tml light may be vision once again, for me to face wat they called justice, my torturement in time...