Yesh!!! finally move a step out....push myself to limit....my 'T' vein also all come out le...when for a run... my determination is so strong orh... today sunday,alot of 'undead' below...also take them as transparent...just run n run...onli bring my key down...grab my key damn tight,cos not enough breath...when reaching destination then i sprint,for ard 100 metre ba...feel like vomitting...wanna faint...then do some chin up n push up n call it a day...
Come home also very xin ku...go bath,my face like turn grey sia...my body still ok...so horrible...realli long time nvr maintain le...tuesday come again...i must move on...this is onli the first step...
Was thinking alot just now...about my failure last time...i talk too much,i think too much,i love too much...love too much tt's y i scare lost,then more i scare,the lesser security i have...in the end i get nothing n lost everything i treasure...dear pls dun mind...i realli talk too much,too much things i shouldn't say,but i just wanna say wat i think,i feel...i dun wanna keep things away...somethings i can tell my parents but i can't tell my friend,which is little...somethings i can tell my friends,but can't tell my parents...somethings i can tell my lover but i can't tell my friends,there's alot,somethings i can tell my lover but not my parents,which is also alot...u can say i chee hong or wat...but my lover i always put as first place...there is very very little things i can't tell my lover...realli,even there is,is something even tell le also not big deal...really...
Eve,there is onli one thing i keep away from u...tt i remember la,i dun remember one is realli nothing big deal...is tt i told my parents tt u r a mix blood...seriously...not on purpose,just a slip of mouth...but now it's all history...nothing important...n for dear,i can't realli remember wat i kept from u...realli nothing ba...onli when boring i go c gals friendster loh...friends la...just concern...boring ma...hope u dun angry...other than tt...i will tell u personally...
I'm thinking...i with someone i love,but she do anything i also dunno...bernard say if u love someone then u trust someone...which i feel pretty ridiculous...especially when i saw ppl with tt kind of evil in them...i dun understand how he put tt in him...he say when they quarrel he will still cry,but how can he trust her to tt extend...i dun understand...realli dun...at least the sense of security must be there loh...perhaps is me ba...haiz...i will still try hard...dear,i will jia you de...n isn't it a good thing tt i jealous when u r close to other guys?haiz...
I love u...i wan ur heart n ur body...i dun wan ur heart onli...i dun wan ur body onli...if i can't have both i would rather dun wan...i wan to know all ur secret...i will let u know all my secret...i wan ur everything even in the past n future...but doesn't seems possible...so at least ur everything from the time we r together...till we leave this world...i wan ur body,heart n ur faith...